If I’m honest SPD is an invisible disorder. The everyday person can’t spot it. I can hide it well… but it sneaks out every now and again in public and its hard to explain the reasons behind it. Even my own family who know me and my sensory quirks can still forget sometimes how e.g a new scent sprayed around the house will affect me. And that’s okay. Everyone has their own problems to deal with but sensory problems affect my everyday 24/7 365 days a year. Im actually currently sat at work writing this post at my desk – nobody in my workplace knows the struggles I have and its hard work to maintain that. Many people really don’t understand the hard work in keeping up appearances all the time and also how tiring explaining yourself to people can become.
However despite all I’ve said above I believe that every person with SPD, sensory problems, OCD, ADHD, Aspergers, Autism, etc (the list goes on) is wonderful. The fact is we are all invisible heroes fighting our own everyday battles inside ourselves, whether its big or small. I saw a CBT (cognitive behavioural therapist) once – she wasn’t helpful at all and actually made me feel worse about myself, but what I did find useful was writing down how I felt everyday in a journal/diary. Its interesting to keep track of meltdowns, my moods on certain days, my good and bad days really. It reminds you that yeah some days are rubbish BUT somedays you’ll achieve what you never thought you could do before, even if its being able to tolerate an environment like a party or a restaurant its a huge achievement and noting it down will remind you and hopefully make you smile each time you flick past the page.
You are actually wonderful.