Adults have meltdowns. I have sensory meltdowns – less frequently than I used to which is good, but I still have them. I will become so overloaded by something like a loud noise or change in routine and that’s enough to set me and my emotions on edge. It’s hard to manage my emotions when this happens and there’s only so long I can bottle up how I feel before I need to cry. I always feel better after crying – even if it tires me out!
The last meltdown I had was on my family holiday in Cornwall a couple of weeks ago. I stay with my family and grandparents in their cottage there. I’ve holidayed there every year since I was born. But the change in routine threw me and the first week I found it quite hard to manage my emotions. I felt desperately down mood wise and upset for no real reason. I should be able to enjoy holidays but I really don’t. I find the unstructured time difficult so much so that I created a schedule for the 2nd week so I knew what we were all doing when.
Yeah I feel silly when I cry. No other 21 year old I know cries when their environment changes or has such heightened senses like I do. It’s tiring when your senses are on high alert 24/7. But I’m managing even if I do have blips like meltdowns every so often. I still try and challenge myself because I’d rather try something and have a meltdown and cry than not try it at all.
Check out this awesome article from an adult on the autistic spectrum and what a meltdown feels like for her:
Image by Thomas James: http://illustrationage.com/2012/11/09/global-melting-illustrated-by-thomas-james/