#LetsTalkAnxiety

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I follow an awesome blogger called Robyn who writes her own blog called ‘Phases of Robyn’ (http://www.phasesofrobyn.com). Although predominantly a fashion blog Robyn recently wrote a post on her struggles with anxiety and is encouraging others to join in the conversation with the tag #LetsTalkAnxiety.

So here is my take on the subject. I’ve really struggled with anxiety a lot in the past and have only recently over the past couple of years started to get slowly better. At secondary school I had counselling and would also regularly go at visit the schools SENCO (special needs dept) and sit and cry during break and lunchtimes as I was so overwhelmed with my SPD and huge levels of anxiety. I have had a long few months of CAMHS counselling (children and adolescent mental health service) NHS counselling and NHS CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) but both, in my case, made my anxiety much worse (however you must remember I have SPD in conjunction with this).  My anxiety was so bad I wouldn’t pick up my family home telephone. I would hate going out anywhere even if it was the local co-op. I hated meeting up with friends or doing anything spontaneous.

Im much better now. Working part-time at the weekends keeps me distracted and continues to help me be more social and outgoing. I’ve been on anti-depressant prescription medicine for a few years now which I think helped me at my worst and continues to help me today. Anxiety is something I always hid throughout my life and I suffered in silence – none of my friends knew my troubles, only my family and a handful of people at my school/therapists.

So lets talk about anxiety. Why should anyone have to hide it? I had to deal with awful anxiety that was crippling when it came to my social life and my sensory processing disorder only made it more complex. But I’m better than I was and even if I have bad days I’m managing. You aren’t alone – so lets talk! 🙂

I get emotional…

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Im awful when I watch films. Im an emotional person as it is but even if a film had a happy ending I will cry because I feel and believe that its quite sad. I don’t know why but I have floods of tears I just hate happy and sad endings. I want a film to have a happy ending but even when it does I will become really upset and it tends to ruin my evening and leave me with a headache. I’ve always been like this with films. I watched ‘Love Rosie’ last night with my parents and sister and ended up bawling my eyes out at the end despite the happy ending. I just felt the ending was sad even though it wasn’t at all…

Does anyone else get over emotional with films? I really should just stick to only watching comedies I think…:)

Liebster Award!

LiebsterAwardThank you to https://talesinanxiety.wordpress.com for the nomination! Please go check out his blog if you have the chance 🙂

Here are the rules for this:

  • Make a post thanking and linking the person who nominated me and include the Liebster Award sticker in the post.
  • Nominate 5-10 other bloggers and notify them of this in one of their posts.
  • All nominated bloggers are to have less than 200 followers.
  • Answer the 11 questions posed by your nominator and create 11 different questions for your nominees to answer.  Or, you can repeat the same questions.
  • Copy these rules into your post.

Here are the 11 questions Tales in Anxiety set for me:

  • Who is the biggest inspiration in your life?

My parents I think. They put up with me and my other siblings and are always there when I need them or I can’t cope.

  • What is the best piece of advice you have ever been given?

‘Do your best that’s all that anyone can ask for’ and ‘Believe in yourself and magic will happen’

  • If you could only eat one thing the rest of your life, what would it be?

Apples! Im obsessed with them…

  • What is the worst movie you have ever seen?

I find E.T creepy….

  • What is your greatest achievement, or the one you are most proud of?

Getting into university despite my SPD and anxiety and studying what I love. Which lead so to the next question…

  • If you could go back and give 12 year-old you one piece of advice, what would that be?

You are going to eventually study what you love so hang on in there.

  • If you could have dinner with any celebrity couple, which couple would you pick and why?

Erm. I’m not really into celebrities so I reckon I would say David Cameron and Sam Cameron. I would talk to them about the education system, mental health and counselling services and also SPD. Oh and I would also rant about why I have to pay £9,000 a year to study at uni!

  • What is your number one goal in life and why?

To do what I love. I want to be a Graphic Designer and improve design around the world.

  • You have to get up and sing a karaoke song in one hour. What song are you singing?

Ooooooooh tricky one! I think a song by Catfish and the Bottlemen.

  • What makes you an awesome and amazing person?

I wouldn’t say I’m either of those! But I like to think I’m unique and quirky and that sets me apart from everyone else.

  • What attracts you to blogging/writing?

Creating awareness of sensory processing disorder in the UK is important to me as it is not as well unknown or understood yet many adults live with it in silence.

Lastly, I need to nominate some people, so  I have chose :

Problems With Infinity | Tales of a Delusional Maniac https://problemswithoo.wordpress.com/

The Ginger Rants | Autism to adoption, food prep to parenting. https://thegingerrants.wordpress.com/

The Life of an Anxious Teen | Anything and everything that happens in the life of an anxious teen https://thelifeofananxiousteen.wordpress.com/

cheeriosmilkandspoon | About family, faith, feeding and sensory stuff https://cheeriosmilkandspoon.wordpress.com/

Annetta Nesler http://www.annettanesler.com/

And here are my questions:

  1. Where is your favourite place to be? ( can be a holiday destination, different country, or something as simple as your garden)
  2. What would you say is the best thing about you as a person?
  3. What’s your favourite animal or animal you would love to have as a pet?
  4. What is your favourite quote? Can be a piece of advice or a quote from a film,book,song,etc…
  5. You have an entire weekend free of work, school or any other commitments – what would you do with this free time?
  6. What’s your favourite film you’ve ever seen?
  7. What made you start blogging?
  8. What’s your favourite type of weather?
  9. If you had to spend a day at a sandy or a rocky beach which would you choose?
  10. Who or what inspires you in life?
  11. Sum yourself up in three words…

The Big 500!

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Thank you to everyone who has contributed to these likes – its very kind of you 🙂 Hoping to keep providing insights to SPD and how I cope with it, alongside a bit of humour of course!

The reason I jump…

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‘The Reason I Jump’ is a book written by Naoki Higashida, a super intelligent, caring thirteen-year-old boy with autism, its almost like a journal of how his autistic mind thinks and feels. Naoki used an alphabet grid to very slowly construct words, sentences, and thoughts that he was unable to speak aloud. He answers questions that people want to know about autism such as: “Why do people with autism talk so loudly and weirdly?” “Why do you line up your toy cars and blocks?” “Why don’t you make eye contact when you’re talking?” and “What’s the reason you jump?”(hence the name of the book).

It’s a beautifully written book thats gives an honest and upfront insight into the autistic world which is genuinely lovely to read. There are parts that relate to his senses and things that resonated with me and relate to my SPD. It is definitely worth a read – or would be an ideal book to give to family members and teachers to explain autism and sensory difficulties. In the intro novelist David Mitchell writes that Naoki’s words allowed him to understand for the first time what his autistic child was explaining what was happening in his mind, which I think is pretty special.