What is masking? 🎭

Hello everyone I’m here again to share another little doodle, this time on masking 🎭. So what actually is masking? Masking involves trying to hide being autistic so others will accept us. It’s also referred to as camouflaging. This means we act in ways that other people will think we are ‘normal’ and to try and be accepted socially. My doodle includes a few examples of trying to mask.

Over the course of my life I feel I have perfected the art of masking (which isn’t necessarily a good thing). I am extremely good at with-holding my feelings and emotions, bottling them up until I get home. I would cry when I had to go to primary school each morning. Then speed forward a bit in time and I’d come home from secondary school each day very tearful. I even used to cry up in the SENCOs (special needs support) room at break and lunch times because secondary school is quite literally THE most overwhelming place I have ever had to cope in 👀. But slowly through sixth form and university I began to build up a resilience to the world and although I still get overwhelmed I can always come home, have a bit of a sensory meltdown (and a good cry) then move on with things.

Socialising will always be hard for me and I think I will always cope with the world like this. But that’s okay. I have to actively remind myself that ‘normal’ isn’t real. And I think you should too. Masking is an autistic and sensory way of coping with the everyday and just trying to get by. Now that is brave. To go out in the world and just exist is a huge thing. Do you have any tips related to masking? Feel free to share below ☺️

Steam trains and sensory meltdowns…🚂

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Yesterday I went to see my work friend who volunteers at the weekend on steam trains! (Pretty darn cool right?!) 🚂

She’s been volunteering for 2 years and I’ve being meaning to come and visit her on the railway for ages. I had a bit of a wobble as I missed the first steam train that she was working on that was due to depart at 11am because the car park was so rammed full I had to park elsewhere and walk to the station.

I got upset (it took me an hour to drive and I was anxious to get there okay and this sort of ruined my routine a bit) so after a *little* cry I was fine and went into the town to have a sit down over a hot drink.

SO after I reconvened with myself (lol) and got myself in a better headspace I walked back to the station for my friends 1pm train! I’m so glad I stuck it out because I had such a good time – my friend let me come up onto the actual steam train to look at the engine and meet the rest of the crew.

I’m sharing this because I think it’s important to be honest with you all and to share what a meltdown is sort of like. How do you manage when you get overwhelmed or your routine changes? Let me know in the comments down below ☺️

The world is too loud today 🌍

IMG_0203Hi everyone ☺️ Here’s a quick little doodle I did (which describes a couple of days I’ve had this week!) you know sometimes when the world around you just feels a bit louder then usual? 🔈 It can affect your mood and for us sensory-beings can lead to overwhelm 🌍

I work in an open plan office which can get loud as people pop by each other’s desks to chat 💬 instead of booking meeting rooms. I can deal with this to some degree but sometimes it gets too much and then I know it’s time for a lil’ walk out of the office for a bit or to the toilets just for 5 to get a bit of quiet 🤫

How do you cope when things get too loud for you? 📢

Fidget & Stim Subscription Box! 📦

This subscription box was kindly gifted to me by James Dickenson from Adapted James (@adaptedjames on Instagram) and on Etsy: https://www.etsy.com/shop/AdaptedJames

The boxes explained: The subscription boxes are once a quarter (every three months) and they are themed. There are three tiers, the bottom tier having something to do, something to squish, a neurodiversity badge, a fiddle puzzle, and 2 more stim things.

Tier 2 has everything from 1 and a chew, and tier 3 has everything from 2 and a fiddle mat. You can also buy them as one off boxes from the Adapted James Etsy store for a few pounds more (which means that you can still get the box that I was sent)

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Spot the dog…😉