Awesome SPD blog posts:

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Here are some awesome posts on SPD I’ve been reading recently:

10 sensory quirks only someone with SPD will understand: http://www.thejennyevolution.com/sensory-quirks-spd/

Happy Sensory Awareness Month:             http://comingtosenses.blogspot.co.uk/2015/10/happy-sensory-awareness-month.html

Vision Odds and Ends:                 https://closertohappiness.wordpress.com/2015/10/02/vision-odds-and-ends/

22 Truths people affected by SPD wish others understood: http://themighty.com/2015/09/22-truths-people-affected-by-sensory-processing-disorder-wish-others-understood/

Senses working Overtime: Autism and Sensory Overload: https://autistichermit.wordpress.com/2015/10/04/senses-working-overtime-autism-and-sensory-overload/

I’m tired 😴

Does anyone else get tired really easily? Doesn’t matter if I get up at 7am or 11.30am Im still super tired and could easily go back to bed. Im just finishing one project at uni and about to start another one the week after next. Im also researching for my dissertation at the same time – this can be quite hard juggling two things at once but I try and prioritise what needs doing and when. Im finding writing to-do lists super helpful as they clear my mind and I can visually see what needs doing and when. I’ve been more easily overwhelmed sensory-wise at the moment and it only takes something small to stress me out which is difficult. Im finding noises difficult to deal with at the moment e.g loud conversations in class, loud sudden noises, loud music, sudden fireworks outside (made me jump the other day!).

I’ve recently been put on medication to help my hyperhydrosis (excessive sweating) as I’ve been having night sweats for months and I’m always super sweaty during the day for no apparent reason…hoping it will kick in and help soon!

How’s everyone else managing through October? Don’t forget if you are in the UK the clocks go back tomorrow! (Sunday 25.10.15)

Such a Clutz!

So I work as a receptionist part-time every weekend. Nothing new there. However yesterday I managed to be a complete and utter CLUTZ. ) A colleague (who’s name I’ve covered up) dropped a key in front of me whilst I was carrying two coffees which for me somehow = A CALAMITY. Read about it below I’m sure you’ll chuckle 🙂 (The blue messages are me and the grey messages are my mum!)
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Yeah I know I’m special….

It’s hard to cope…


I feel a little bit like this. I just want everyone else to be happy – I love making other people happy. I find it harder to feel happy and when I do it comes in short bursts. I’ve been overthinking things lately without meaning to its almost like my mind naturally goes into overdrive and I can’t calm it down.

I’m also feeling more overwhelmed sensory wise at the moment. Like noises, lights, smells, etc have been super irritating me to the point they affect my mood.

I get horrible episodes of feeling low and upset and feeling worthless and abnormal. But I know it will eventually pass it’s just draining to have SPD and anxiety. My family and friends get frustrated when I can’t explain how I am feeling especially if I am crying.

Im hoping these thoughts and feelings will eventually pass or improve. It’s just hard to cope in the meantime…

First Instincts…


I do love animals. They don’t judge you. For example my dog doesn’t judge me when I’m in a hyper mood and bouncing around or I’m talking to myself. He doesn’t tell me to shut up when I’m crying (although he does look at me oddly sometimes). He knows when I’m not myself and will come and sit next to me (mainly for pats) and I can approach my dog whenever, whatever and give him a quick hug and pat.

Now people…they are a different story altogether.

They judge and look at me instantly if I’m in a weird mood, if I cry and can’t help it, if I’m not myself and can’t function properly. I find people so hard to judge and I am so self conscious in front of anyone that I don’t know I go into panic mode. Also I have to constantly explain myself and my problems to every new person I meet when I can’t cope and they look at me oddly I have to explain. It’s a nightmare even telling the doctors I see about SPD nobody has ever heard of it. But animals don’t require an explain action from me. They are always there and loving and they are way wayyy more approachable and have such a care free and easy going attitude – hence why I found the image above so brilliant.

I know I have put been posting as much as I did over summer but I’m definitely going to keep blogging as regularly as possible. I’m in my third and final year at uni and the work load is just kicking in! 😉 I’m finding it a nightmare to concentrate in class at the moment as all 20 of us work in one studio and there are loads of conversations and clashing music going on 24/7. Wish I could wear my ear defenders in class like I do at home when I do my uni work. I’m not sure I could deal with the stares and questions though 😔

#LetsTalkAnxiety

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I follow an awesome blogger called Robyn who writes her own blog called ‘Phases of Robyn’ (http://www.phasesofrobyn.com). Although predominantly a fashion blog Robyn recently wrote a post on her struggles with anxiety and is encouraging others to join in the conversation with the tag #LetsTalkAnxiety.

So here is my take on the subject. I’ve really struggled with anxiety a lot in the past and have only recently over the past couple of years started to get slowly better. At secondary school I had counselling and would also regularly go at visit the schools SENCO (special needs dept) and sit and cry during break and lunchtimes as I was so overwhelmed with my SPD and huge levels of anxiety. I have had a long few months of CAMHS counselling (children and adolescent mental health service) NHS counselling and NHS CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) but both, in my case, made my anxiety much worse (however you must remember I have SPD in conjunction with this).  My anxiety was so bad I wouldn’t pick up my family home telephone. I would hate going out anywhere even if it was the local co-op. I hated meeting up with friends or doing anything spontaneous.

Im much better now. Working part-time at the weekends keeps me distracted and continues to help me be more social and outgoing. I’ve been on anti-depressant prescription medicine for a few years now which I think helped me at my worst and continues to help me today. Anxiety is something I always hid throughout my life and I suffered in silence – none of my friends knew my troubles, only my family and a handful of people at my school/therapists.

So lets talk about anxiety. Why should anyone have to hide it? I had to deal with awful anxiety that was crippling when it came to my social life and my sensory processing disorder only made it more complex. But I’m better than I was and even if I have bad days I’m managing. You aren’t alone – so lets talk! 🙂

I get emotional…

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Im awful when I watch films. Im an emotional person as it is but even if a film had a happy ending I will cry because I feel and believe that its quite sad. I don’t know why but I have floods of tears I just hate happy and sad endings. I want a film to have a happy ending but even when it does I will become really upset and it tends to ruin my evening and leave me with a headache. I’ve always been like this with films. I watched ‘Love Rosie’ last night with my parents and sister and ended up bawling my eyes out at the end despite the happy ending. I just felt the ending was sad even though it wasn’t at all…

Does anyone else get over emotional with films? I really should just stick to only watching comedies I think…:)

The reason I jump…

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‘The Reason I Jump’ is a book written by Naoki Higashida, a super intelligent, caring thirteen-year-old boy with autism, its almost like a journal of how his autistic mind thinks and feels. Naoki used an alphabet grid to very slowly construct words, sentences, and thoughts that he was unable to speak aloud. He answers questions that people want to know about autism such as: “Why do people with autism talk so loudly and weirdly?” “Why do you line up your toy cars and blocks?” “Why don’t you make eye contact when you’re talking?” and “What’s the reason you jump?”(hence the name of the book).

It’s a beautifully written book thats gives an honest and upfront insight into the autistic world which is genuinely lovely to read. There are parts that relate to his senses and things that resonated with me and relate to my SPD. It is definitely worth a read – or would be an ideal book to give to family members and teachers to explain autism and sensory difficulties. In the intro novelist David Mitchell writes that Naoki’s words allowed him to understand for the first time what his autistic child was explaining what was happening in his mind, which I think is pretty special.

Bargain Ear Defenders!

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I was shopping in TKMaxx a couple of weeks ago and spotted these in the DIY/Tool section. I naturally got excited about them! I had been sharing some ‘Kidz’ (see previous post on ear defenders earlier on in my blog) ear defenders with my brother but they were getting too small and were squeezing my glasses into my face at the sides!

Anyway these are awesome and block out sound so I can actually think! Especially useful for writing when it gets noisy at home or if I need to concentrate on a task. When I was interning in London at the start of summer (again see my previous internship post!) the main manager/founder of the company would come in in the morning and sit with ear defenders on all day long! Makes me feel a bit better that other people find them beneficial 🙂

Have you got ear defenders? Do you find them useful? Let me know in the comments below!