Self Isolation Achievements ✅


Hello everyone, I’m back again, this time with an illustration of some self isolation achievements. I know that all the news on TV and online seems to be constantly swirling around and being updated continually (which is fine) but it can be really difficult not to get anxious, stressed, upset and triggered by it all. I’m trying to hold on to the small positives each day and the little autistic and sensory achievements I have been making along the way.

Why not comment down below any wins or things you’ve done with your time (they can be big or small – everything counts).

I hope you are all doing okay and staying safe (as much as you can be with all this going on).

I was interviewed on the ‘Thoughty Auti’ podcast! 🧠

Hey everyone! Last week I was interviewed by the lovely Thomas from @aspergersgrowth on his podcast ‘Thoughty Auti’.

It went live last Saturday so go check it out! It’s everywhere you’d normally listen to podcasts and also on his YouTube channel too! Was such a nice chat and we talked all things sensory and autism related. Let me know what you think 💭

Links to the podcast:

Or search ‘Thoughty Auti’ wherever you usually listen to podcasts!

Aspergers Growth / Thomas’s links:

A Diagnosis…🙌


Grab yourself a snack and a drink of your choice and buckle in for the longest blog post I have ever written!

(Just a slight disclaimer beforehand – I have included a brief history of my life below, obviously I could never include everything I struggle with sensory/autistic/mental health-wise and I have left some more private and personal struggles out, I’ve got to protect myself online and somethings will always be private).

I am going to start right from the beginning…

I have always had sensory issues, since I was little. As a baby I cried when I heard loud or unexpected noises like sneezes. I struggled with clothing and couldn’t tolerate anything tight and found it difficult to be cuddled.

At nursery I got along with everyone and joined in games with other children. I did avoid all forms of messy play and struggled when going to birthday parties (both my own and other children!!) I’d hate the attention and ended up retreating and crying. I was an extremely fussy eater and would only eat Spaghetti Bolognese exclusively for lunch and dinner.

I struggled a lot at primary school and my parents decided (when I was aged 8) to take me to a private educational psychologist to see what their thoughts were. As a result of this I was referred to an Occupational Therapist (OT) and I had sessions of occupational therapy over a number of weeks and throughout primary school. I continued to struggle through primary school but having OT sessions helped me to understand and desensitise myself to the world a tiny bit at a time.

And then: Secondary school creeped up on me. I’ve always been awful with change and transitioning between different parts of my life (moving house, going on holiday, having days off, etc). I wasn’t used to such a busy school environment and constantly having to navigate through huge crowds of children to get to and from classes. I used to see a home-school link worker once a week to discuss my struggles and regularly would just go up to the SENCO’s office during breaks and lunchtimes to sit in the quiet and cry due to overwhelm.

I became to old to have occupational therapy on the NHS and aged 16-18 I saw an OT privately because I was really struggling at school and sixth form/college.

I had an IEP (independent education plan) throughout primary and secondary school which allowed me to have 25% extra time in any exams I had to take due to my processing difficulties. I was also allowed to take my exams in a separate quiet room which did wonders for me as it was a much less stressful and quieter environment than an exam hall.

I somehow managed to get 11 GCSE’s A-C (although I had to retake maths GCSE three times!) and 3 A Levels in Media Studies, Graphic Design and Art graded A,B,C. I also managed to study an Art Foundation course and went on to study a BA Hons Graphic Design degree at a local university and graduated with First Class Honours. (In my first year at uni I was diagnosed with Dyslexia by a uni-wide testing initiative! I was able to have a dyslexia support tutor to help me throughout my uni course which was helpful).

Since I graduated in 2016 I’ve been a Graphic Designer in two companies (one was an agency but now I’m in-house).

So how did I start off the diagnosis process?

In June 2018 I was told by my therapist at the time that she strongly felt I had a lot of autistic traits and she urged me to go forward for a diagnosis if possible through my GP. My therapist felt unable to help/support me further due to these difficulties arising within therapy sessions.

  • Went to my local doctors surgery and discussed wanting to go forward for a diagnosis. Didn’t really get anywhere.
  • Went to local doctors surgery again and saw another doctor who was much more understanding. She agreed to refer me but pre-warned me that the wait time suggested was 9 months.
  • I was placed on waiting list, letter came to confirm that in September 2018.
  • I phoned after 9 months to see what the wait time was like and was told that in July and August 2018 there was a spike in people coming forward for diagnosis so there was a backlog of appointments they needed to get through, that’s why I had to wait longer.
  • Waited 14 months in total and received a letter in October 2019 inviting me for an appointment in a months time.
  • Booked appointment ASAP 🙂
  • Paperwork came through alongside 5 questionnaires to fill out beforehand and to bring to the appointment with me.
  • 3hr appointment was booked for Friday 8th November 2019 at 9.30am.

So after booking my appointment I decided that the sensible thing to do is to go into it very open minded (aka not pinning any hope on getting or not getting a diagnosis). I did get steadily more nervous the closer the day came, which I know was only natural. It did really help to speak to people on Instagram who are part of the lovely autistic community and offered so much help and support as to what they had experienced during the diagnosis journey.

List of questionnaires I filled out:

  • Early childhood and development questionnaire (my mum filled out, written answers).
  • About me, adulthood current struggles, etc (I filled out, written answers).
  • Short sensory profile questionnaire (multiple choice, I filled out).
  • Autism assessment questionnaire (multiple choice, one version I had to fill out, one version my mum had to fill out).
  • NHS personal details and data consent forms.

The actual day of the assessment:

I was very nervous on the day but kept the feeling quite buried! I had an appointment at 9.30am on 8th November and travelled there with my mum.

I was in the waiting room for about 15 minutes as I got there early. There were lots of helpful leaflets dotted around the place for help with mental health and local support groups and helplines which I always think is good to see. At 9.30am my assessor came to meet me (I was worried she might shake my hand as an introduction but she didn’t so PHEW!)

I decided to have my mum present during my entire appointment. I gave consent to this, you have the option to bring someone with you and for them to pop in and out of your appointment depending on the questions being asked or for them to sit in and be incorporated into the questioning and discussions. Equally you don’t have to bring anyone in with you, but you’ll need to ask someone you’ve known you since you were a child to fill out some of the questionnaires beforehand.

It was a very intense 3 hours. The assessor, my mum and I spoke entirely about myself for the whole time which felt very odd! We discussed my life right from birth through to my childhood and eventual adulthood. The assessor explained it was important to be able to see and understand the possiblity of autism running throughout my life in order to give an autism diagnosis. The assessor typed up notes throughout my entire assessment (which she explained would be in a final report) and also regularly stopped my mum and I from talking over/past key things so she could go back and delve into them a bit deeper.

My assessor was really lovely and explained everything as clearly as she could – and was happy to go through things when I didn’t quite understand what she meant. If I am honest I cried (twice!) during our appointment and I didn’t feel at all silly or judged.

I had no idea if I was going to get a diagnosis at the end of the appointment or not and to be honest I was too focused trying to answer all the questions to think that far ahead.

So what is my diagnosis…?

My assessor said ‘Congratulations Emily, you have Autism’ which was the most amazing thing to hear. I think it shouldn’t ever be said to someone that ‘sorry you have autism’ but congratulations! Because it is a good thing to have a diagnosis of something finally and something to be glad of. I was really thankful to have such a considerate assessor.

I was also told by my assessor that I had something called Alexithymia:

Alexithymia is a subclinical phenomenon involving a lack of emotional awareness or, more specifically, difficulty in identifying and describing feelings and in distinguishing feelings from the bodily sensations of emotional arousal (Nemiah et al., 1976).

more info on this here

Back to the autism diagnosis: I am considered to be currently be at a Level 1 in terms of support. There are three levels of support that you are considered under when diagnosed.

Just before you read the information on each level below it’s worth just considering: my assessor made it very clear that you can shift through/between levels as your life changes (this is written into the final report too). For example your support level is very much dependent on things such as major changes in your life, mental health, etc they understand that people do not just sit in one level all their life. Also just to be clear I was told that they no longer give the diagnosis of Aspergers.

The level description below are taken from here

Level 1: Requiring support

A person with level 1 autism may have difficulties in social situations. Level 1 is the least severe autism diagnosis. People in this category have social difficulties that require some support.

They can find it difficult to initiate conversations with others and may respond inappropriately or lose interest quickly. As a result, it can be challenging for them to make friends, especially without the right support. People with level 1 autism may also show inflexible behaviours. It can be difficult for them to cope with changing situations or contexts, such as new environments. They may need help with organisation and planning.

Level 2: Requiring substantial support

People in this category need more support than those with a level 1 diagnosis. They have more severe social deficits that make holding a conversation very challenging. Even with support, they may struggle to communicate coherently and are more likely to respond inappropriately to others.They may speak in short sentences or only discuss very specific topics. These individuals also have issues with nonverbal communication and might display behaviours such as facing away from the person with whom they are communicating. People with a level 2 diagnosis may also have inflexible behaviours that can interfere with daily functioning. They typically do not cope very well with changes, which can cause them significant distress.

Level 3: Requiring very substantial support

Level 3 is the most severe autism diagnosis. People with a level 3 diagnosis have significant impairments in their verbal and nonverbal communication.They will often avoid interactions with others, but they may interact in a limited way if they must respond to others or communicate a need.Their behaviours are highly inflexible and repetitive. They may react strongly to changes and become highly distressed in a situation that requires them to alter their focus or task.

After she told me my diagnosis I was wondering what would happen to all my questionnaires I filled out and gave to her at the start of the appointment. She explained and I did not realise that these would just be supporting evidence and that they are marked after the appointment and included in the final report. The actual diagnosis I was given was purely based upon the assessors own understanding/opinion she built on me throughout the appointment. Also any old supporting paperwork I gave her to read through (old OT reports, mental health assessments, etc) helped her further. This was actually quite refreshing as my diagnosis was not based on just questionnaires but the actual in-depth discussions throughout the entire appointment and her own professional opinion.

So what happens after diagnosis?

My diagnosis and report will be run past a head autism specialist and clinical psychologist. I have to wait 6-8 weeks for a full written report and my diagnosis paperwork to be sent to me. The report will include everything discussed during my appointment and specific recommendations for me as well as local support groups.

My assessor also explained that the paperwork I get through will have one specific sort of covering sheet that I can give to my employers that will explain my autism diagnosis to them without having to attach my full written report (which is very personal and private to me) which was good to know. I am yet to decided whether I will let me employer know about my difficulties, it might be something I go on to discuss in a separate blog post though. She also told me that having a diagnosis/confirmed assessment of Autism now entitles me to have a social care assessment should I feel the need.(although we both agreed I wouldn’t need/benefit from this).

So…a conclusion.

I feel very grateful for the opportunity to have an autism assessment at the age of 25. It was a really big thing for me and I honestly feel like I finally have some closure. I am able to say ‘I’m autistic’ and it just sums up all my difficulties into one understandable label/saying which is really important to me. For so long I have been unable to summarise my difficulties quickly, always having to delve into the specifics of my sensory problems and social struggles.

I would like to thank my family for their support, particularly my mum. She has always stood up for me and really does know me and my difficulties the best (you could say she’s a specialist in ‘all things Emily-related’). I would also like to thank Michael for his support throughout 🙂

I like to be honest and genuine (on here and on my social media platforms) about my life as a sensory-being and now as an autistic person. I do hope that this comes across.

Thank you for reading my post and as always I am happy to respond to comments, DM’s and emails with any questions you might have.

Also why not check out Episode 16 of my 21andsensory podcast discussing my journey to my diagnosis here.

It’s that time of the year again: Halloween 🎃

It’s that time of the year again: Halloween 🎃 I hope everyone has a Halloween that suits them – whether you are going all out and dressing up, trick or treating or even partying (or if you’re just having a nice quiet night in with a book and a bath!)

I’ve done a little doodle above describing some of the things we autistic / sensory people struggle with when it gets to this time of year 🍂 It can be quite an overwhelming season (Halloween, Bonfire / Firework Night and then the Christmas festivities 😱) it all seems to follow one another in quick succession!

What is masking? 🎭

Hello everyone I’m here again to share another little doodle, this time on masking 🎭. So what actually is masking? Masking involves trying to hide being autistic so others will accept us. It’s also referred to as camouflaging. This means we act in ways that other people will think we are ‘normal’ and to try and be accepted socially. My doodle includes a few examples of trying to mask.

Over the course of my life I feel I have perfected the art of masking (which isn’t necessarily a good thing). I am extremely good at with-holding my feelings and emotions, bottling them up until I get home. I would cry when I had to go to primary school each morning. Then speed forward a bit in time and I’d come home from secondary school each day very tearful. I even used to cry up in the SENCOs (special needs support) room at break and lunch times because secondary school is quite literally THE most overwhelming place I have ever had to cope in 👀. But slowly through sixth form and university I began to build up a resilience to the world and although I still get overwhelmed I can always come home, have a bit of a sensory meltdown (and a good cry) then move on with things.

Socialising will always be hard for me and I think I will always cope with the world like this. But that’s okay. I have to actively remind myself that ‘normal’ isn’t real. And I think you should too. Masking is an autistic and sensory way of coping with the everyday and just trying to get by. Now that is brave. To go out in the world and just exist is a huge thing. Do you have any tips related to masking? Feel free to share below ☺️

Fidget & Stim Subscription Box! 📦

This subscription box was kindly gifted to me by James Dickenson from Adapted James (@adaptedjames on Instagram) and on Etsy:

The boxes explained: The subscription boxes are once a quarter (every three months) and they are themed. There are three tiers, the bottom tier having something to do, something to squish, a neurodiversity badge, a fiddle puzzle, and 2 more stim things.

Tier 2 has everything from 1 and a chew, and tier 3 has everything from 2 and a fiddle mat. You can also buy them as one off boxes from the Adapted James Etsy store for a few pounds more (which means that you can still get the box that I was sent)

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Spot the dog…😉

What is stimming? 🤷🏻‍♀️

Hi everyone 👋 this is a post in collaboration with the wonderful @agonyautie. Sara suggested working together on a post together all about stimming and what it looks like visually. Here are some wise words from @agonyautie:

‘Stop shaming stimming. Stimulate yourself through your senses. Have fun, Stim freely, be respectful of others and Stim Shame Free. Make sure to stim safely and stim boldly!’

I’ve tried to visually represent in my two illustrations ✏️ the wide variety of things that can be referred to as stims (which is short for self-regulatory behaviour). Stimming helps a person to self calm and process overwhelming environments. Some stims can be quite subtle such as hair twirling or chewing whereas others are more noticeable and can be destructive such as skin picking (dermatillomania) or hair pulling (Trichotillomania) which can cause damage.

It’s important to recognise that stimming safely (whether you are a child or adult) is okay and not something to ever be ashamed of. It should not be looked down on or discouraged. Go forth and stim freely! 🙌

Link to my original Instagram post here

An important pie chart 🥧


Hi everyone! Hope you like my important pie chart drawing ✏️ does anyone else have a range of clothes but also just stick to your favourite, old, most worn and comfy clothes? I find it SO hard to wear new clothes and new shoes 👟 (it has taken me actual years to get into new shoes!). It’s so difficult sensory-wise to get used to new clothing 👕 and it always ends up that my clothes have to be washed multiple times before I feel comfortable wearing them…

Do not get me started on itchy / scratchy tags and labels, ugh! They are the worst 😭 how do you cope with clothing and footwear? Any top tips? Feel free to share them in the comments below. Please feel free to share my post on social media platforms but do please credit me @21andsensory thanks!

Sensory Hangover


This post explains what an earth a sensory hangover is. Before you read this: it has nothing to do with drinking / alcohol consumption! 🚫

A sensory hangover is a term I’ve started to use (in my head!) to describe the state in which I am left in after being in an overwhelming place, environment, scenario, etc. The sensory hangover begins on instant return to my house – I can get emotional and feel totally overwhelmed and stressed out.

An example: I was invited to my friends 21st birthday party. It was at her house and it was a surprise birthday party. I hate surprises. I felt awful and sick and spaced out for the first part of the evening while my friend wasn’t even at the party but I managed to hang out with two other girls I knew. Then when my friend came in the room I had to ready myself for everyone shouting ‘SURPRISE!’ super loud, with much clapping, hugging, kissing and music accompanying it all. It was all too much and I made my excuses and left relatively early in the evening. I then got home and cried. A lot. My parents were understanding but I just couldn’t hold my emotions in and I felt completely weird for the rest of the evening and most of the next day. It took a real chunk of my energy out of me and I was left unable to process everything and all messy inside my head.

Now I try to be way more conscious of where I go, for how long, and what will be there that could affect me. I say no more often now (although I have the FOMO: fear of missing out) I know it’s for the better and I am way way happier not going and having a chilled night in. Sound is a huge issue for me and can really quickly bring on a sensory hangover – I feel physically drained and unable to process or compute what people are saying in noisy situations that I just prefer to remove myself from them entirely. 🏃

The sensory hangover can then move on a bit and I have episodes of intense OCD where I will feel the urge to clean obsessively (whether it’s myself or my bedroom or another room in the house). This keeps me busy/distracted/occupied which I find helpful – I really enjoy tidying my room and putting things away every few days.

So…to put it simply: a sensory hangover describes the physically tired, mentally drained and totally spaced out feeling I have after an overwhelming social interaction. 💥(The feeling of a sensory hangover will come over me immediately after an overwhelming thing and can last from a few minutes to even a day in length which = not cool)

Have you ever experienced a sensory ( / autistic-type / call it whatever suits you!) hangover?